Never Again, My Friend

Woo hooooo! I am so pissed at a certain person right now, but no way am I letting myself wallow in that dark cave that I once resided. Shivers. You are chipping away at me slowly. Don't say the things you say, it only makes me confused, and hurt. You never gave me a chance.

Now, you'll just have to deal with me, mister. If you're not happy, you know where the door is!! Teehee. Why bother, when they don't?

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Reading your posts made me happy. Today, you made me happy. Thinking of you made me happy. And I miss that feeling. The world needs more of you. I wish I could be like you, so infectious with your personality. How do you do it? I feel so different, like I'm made to be happy because you made me feel that my existence could count for something.

I wish you knew what I feel about you :)

Perhaps it would change matters.

Perhaps not.

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Be gone, emo self!!!

toodles

xoxo

Away With The Fairies

That's me, when I am stuck with 57 pages of hardcore notes that I have to get through by today. FRICK.

Went for an interview today for Melb Uni's host orientation program. Sat around in a circle and answered little questions on a sheet of paper. Mine said: Tell me about a time when you had to deal with a difficult person. SORRY ****, I had to use you as my example.

Sheesh I thought I had it down pat. And my nerves got in the way and it pretty much ended like the time when I had to present my findings from a respiratory exam, 3 days IN hospital, after a 1 year hiatus from cough, medicine. FRICK again! But the hubby said I went well, in fact he said I went really well, but he lies to me all the time anyway cause he finds me amazing, tis' said in a non-bitchy way, of course.

PFFFT. I HAVE TO WIN!!!!

Heehee, who ever said it was a competition, right? But my life is about setting goals!! Goals aren't malignant, right? Especially when I'm planking next to yellow-shirt girl in combat class and right at the point when I feel like giving up I get a stare that said, I triumph! OOOH not so fast you little twerp, I was born to fight!

TOTALLY DEVIATING.

4.12pm and the day is balmy. Oh, HAPPY BEEDAY JP! :) I bought a dress for your wedding, and can't wait to wear it!

YAY tis the season for weddings! Don't ask about mine yet, peeps. You'll know when I know.

Gotta head back to the notes!

ADIOS!

xoxo

Mad (Med) Adventures

Diary of a 23 year old medical student, sister, daughter, and wife to a v. loving family and bimbo friend to one a many girlies.

It's the start of a new rotation. This time, it's Renal, Endo, Thyroid and Vascular. All in 6 weeks. Yes, I haven't even mastered the knowledge from last block and here we go again! Whoosh!!! Everyday we are exposed to such a steep learning curve. This morning, I learnt the difference between Type 1 and 2 Diabetes, and in 2 hours, I was standing in a room with 2 other meddies, interviewing a 68 year old man who just had his 38th surgery and his toes amputated from complications of Diabetes. Isn't is amazing how this art is applied?

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Half an hour later, I meet a man with an extremely rare condition, and with it came an hour's worth of being someone's confidante. In this field, we see into our patient's world, we get to experience their anguish, their desperation, and live through so much raw emotions. When I see tears welling out from a grown man's eyes, I am lost. Do I prod more, or do I gracefully divert his anxieties? Each time I speak to a patient with fears and concerns, I feel this exasperating need to reach out, to take a little bit of pain so it becomes bearable, but at the same time so blessed to be able to learn so much about life, from my little daily experiences.

We, with able bodies and sound mind, we are lucky.

This world bears infinite boundaries, and part of life's adventures, especially mine, is to explore it's cavities and hopefully one day make little sense out of it.

So looking forward to tomorrow.

To Let in Sale

Hello!

This past week has been glorious. We never had a break since clinical school commenced, and it has been months of learning and discovering and long hours in hospital...So we decided that enough is enough...........and took a Friday off. (HA.)

7 am Friday morning, the alarm bell goes and off the hubby goes to send the car for its service

9am I wake up to the sun-rays creeping through the sides of the blinds, and feel a surge of joy, that I am able to enjoy this wonderous moment in MY own house ;D

10am We catch the bus to the city!

11am Breakfast at my favourite coffee place, they ran out of almond croissants so a pistachio torsade it is.

12pm Bought a dress at Gasp for the bro's wedding

1pm Lunch at this Taiwanese joint in the city. XXL crispy chicken for me, yummm

2pm I quick rest to freshen at the Westin. Heehee

4pm We bus back to Doncaster, made a few customized Coke cans!

6pm Drive to Sale!

10pm Movies and catching up with Liz and her amazing housemates! Horror movie was a let down.

What a beautiful day it was!!!!

:) If only every day was like this.

I heart good conversations with good people. Such a rarity from where I come from, sadly.

Red Velvet!

What's baking?

Chocolately Lurvee

Hoola hoop

Ola!

Currently doing my block in Orthopaedics, Rheumatology and Dermatology, and with each passing day I grow increasingly grateful that I so blessed to be doing what I do ♥

One day, I will grow up to be a doctor.

THANK YOU LIFE.

Gwen's recent splurges include a beautiful camel coloured Tilkah Ditzy Sling Bag..for my stethhoscope and long case paraphernalia to be carried around the wards!

Pretty, No??

xoxo

Welcome to what seems like eternity

I'm sitting here in my new house.

It's so perfect, I'm cherishing every moment. THANK YOU, LIFE.

Preparing for PBL tomorrow, and there will be more days like this, learning and cramming, feeling mighty one day and rotten the next, crashing and burning, whoever said Medicine is glamorous?

But I am ready for it :)

We are give one short life. If you imagine yourself as an astronomical creature looking down on earth, and you see buildings and bridges, mountains and men, millions of them, where do you stand?

Would you be so afraid, like me, of how significantly small my presence is?

Would it matter if my nail polish isn't chipped, that my wardrobe is bursting with designer clothes and I have at least 10 pairs of shoes that are brand spanking new, yet to be worn?

I feel so damn guilty sometimes.

But I have Medicine, my purpose, to be able to reach within my very own limitless scope, to help whoever I can, the best I can. I have my family, this precious, wonderful mist of pure love, and within the parameters of bountiless love and purpose, this little bumblebee shall work her wonders.

Watch. This. Space. I will not let anyone down.